Comments on: What am I Doing Here?

By: Craig A. Cunningham

Craig A. Cunningham — Thu, 01 Jan 2009 05:58:51 +0000

My favorite sad music I got from who was once my favorite depressive intellectual lady; it’s a group called Nomos and the album is called “Set you free.” Look for it.

Also, regarding S.A.D. I have been taking 2200 i.u. of vitamin D for the last few weeks (and last winter) and it helps a LOT.

And smile. even if it’s forced.

By: Sukey

Sukey — Thu, 01 Jan 2009 01:09:07 +0000

Heidi! I hear you so loud and clear. Gary suffers from SAD, and it sounds like you’ve got it too. Plus, I’m finding that this is SUCH a strange time of life.

I find my airheaded 20 year old self examining the person I’ve become and saying WTF!!! And then my current self looks back and thinks “why am I worrying about living up to HER expectations?”. It feels kinda crazy.

The first few years I was dating Gary were the happiest of of my life. I think I’ve spent the past THIRTY years convinced that if I JUST (lost weight, was more athletic, returned to my drawing etc etc) became a little more like the person I was, I could recapture some of that happiness.

I had a revelation in the last 24 hours – there is DEFINITELY something “in the air” – that it is very important for me to LET GO of the past. I need to stop dwelling on what WAS and trying to recapture a piece of that.

So it’s sort of ironic for me, to read what you’ve been feeling, after I spent the afternoon taking old pictures out of the frames hanging on the walls of our apartment. I took the pictures out and I am determined to leave them up and empty until I can fill them with CURRENT things that make me feel good about NOW and the FUTURE.

I know you and I aren’t feeling and going through the same things exactly, but I want to let you know that I’m so glad you shared your thoughts. I hope too, that you don’t stay feeling so down and lost for long. You are an amazing person with so much to give to the world, even if it doesn’t feel like that to you right now.

By: Troy

Troy — Wed, 31 Dec 2008 18:05:42 +0000

I have a tape like your K tel, it is simply titled, “Depressing Shit”… Unfortunately, it is more geared towards losing someone, rather than your “way”…
Sounds like the Winter doldrums for you… I am there, every year right about now… Wait for Spring… You will get better… I am lucky as I do take this time to try to write or compose… Down time away from the outside chores and distractions that would otherwise call to me.. Motorcycle , Lake and Boat..:-)

By: Write and Earn a Living

Write and Earn a Living — Wed, 31 Dec 2008 05:11:22 +0000

Man, can I relate to your sentiments! It's so incredible to be in a place or community with like-minded, creative individuals. You come away so stimulated. You share ideas and enthusiasm and are the richer for it. These places make one come alive! Write and Earn a Living´s last blog post - Writing Courses