It look much longer than I thought it would to sand and paint the front stairs. I finished with the fading twilight, and it felt so good to stretch and survey my work. I’m sooooo sore! I should have done all of this in the spring.
Front Steps DONE
Molly got tired out just watching. She snuck into the bedroom and she looked so cute we didn’t have the heart to kick her out.
Molly Snuggles
I’ll sleep well tonight, but I’ll still have grey-spattered hands for work tomorrow. Forgot to get paint remover.
The very existence of the possibility of a “honey do” list astounded me. You mean, you can make a list of things that need to be done around the house and really expect the hubby to start doing them? Wow!!! Well, it didn’t really work out that way. Both hubby and myself are… well, we’re basically intellectuals, which means that our skill set is often less than practical. And – of course – we’re both working full-time and not getting any younger. We’re tired!
Still, the tasks need to be done. Lately, I’ve been tackling some of the list myself. It’s not as difficult as I thought, but getting materials is sometimes expensive, so I need to parcel it out.
Here’s what I’ve accomplished so far:
Weed-whack the back yard
Get more fish for the pond
Replace the light bulbs on the back yard landscape lights and move them near the pond
Cut back the overgrown shrubs, especially the azaleas at the front steps
Get the leaves out from the sunken entrance to the basement
Cut back the fig tree where it’s taking over the deck
Start levelling off the back yard where sinkholes are making it wavy (with shovel!) – about halfway done
Blow the yard leaves into reasonable areas
Put up a new hammock where the other one had rotted out
Start cleaning out the junk in the garage – about halfway done
Replace the old lampshades in the living room
Treat the old wood fireplace mantel with lemon oil
Treat the perimeter of the house with insect killer
Clean out the mysterious objects buried under the back deck
Here’s what remains to be done:
Research, bid and pay for better house insulation
Storage for comforters – hope chest or cabinet
Get a bedroom suite – or at least a headboard
Get 25′ of hose, dig a trench, and hook up the pond pump to the waterfall
Buy butcherblock or granite island for kitchen
Repair or replace hot tub
Replace rugs throughout
Get a conversation couch with recliners for tv room
Replace/install garbage disposal
Replace the kitchen floor
Replace the broken parts of kitchen cabinets
Attempt to stain the good kitchen cabinets
Tile area around bathroom sinks
Replace back deck lights
Get electrical work done, and replace ceiling lights in living room
Finish basement stairs
Replace outside basement door area wood slats with metal
Ventilation fan in basement
Update/replace important windows
Weatherstrip the leaking windows
Pressure-wash the back deck and the front stair area
Sand and stain the front stairs
Stain the deck
Decide color, and paint the wall around the fireplace
The greyness is comforting, bittersweet, familiar.
Is the awareness of the longing itself the meaning? Is there an object for the longing? Is the longing the subject? What is beyond the longing? Where is the between of the longing?
“A Lonely Voice” – October Project
I keep looking back
A lifetime back
Across the desert
In a desert where no one can explain
You tell me God is dancing in the rain
I can hear the echo
In a maze of words
A lonely voice behind a door
Can you hear me calling
From a world away
A lonely voice behind a door
I keep looking back
Traditions back
Across the centuries
In a century where no one can explain
You tell me God is dancing in the rain
I can hear the echo
In a maze of words
A lonely voice behind a door
Can you hear me calling
From a world away
A lonely voice behind a door
As I stare ahead
A dream ahead
Across the ocean
Cross an ocean where there’s nothing to explain
You tell me God is laughing in the rain
I can hear the echo
In a maze of words
A lonely voice behind a door
Can you hear me calling
From a world away
A lonely voice behind a door
“Perhaps all the dragons in our lives are but princesses that are waiting to see us act just once with beauty and courage.
Perhaps everything terrible is, in its deepest essence, something helpless that needs our help.â€
~ Rainer Maria Rilke
“Man can preserve a vestige of spiritual freedom, of independence of mind, even in such terrible conditions of psychic and physical stress.”
~ Viktor Frankl
“Spirit borrows from matter the perceptions on which it feeds and restores them to matter in the form of movements which it has stamped with its own freedom.”
~ Henri L. Bergson
“Spiritual energy flows in and produces effects in the phenomenal world.”
~ William James
“In each individual the spirit is made flesh, in each one the whole of creation suffers, in each one a Savior is crucified.”
~ Hermann Hesse
“There is no intensity of love or feeling that does not involve the risk of crippling hurt. It is a duty to take this risk, to love and feel without defense or reserve.”
~ William S. Burroughs
“It is very hard sometimes to know how intensely we are loved, and of what value our presence is to those who love us.”
~ Anthony Trollope
“The psychic task which a person can and must set for himself is not to feel secure, but to be able to tolerate insecurity.”
~ Erich Fromm
“Learn to watch your drama unfold while at the same time knowing you are more than your drama.”
~ Ram Dass
“In the dominant Western religious system, the love of God is essentially the same as the belief in God, in God’s existence, God’s justice, God’s love. The love of God is essentially a thought experience. In the Eastern religions and in mysticism, the love of God is an intense feeling experience of oneness, inseparably linked with the expression of this love in every act of living.”
~ Erich Fromm
“The creation of something new is not accomplished by the intellect but by the play instinct acting from inner necessity.
The creative mind plays with the objects it loves.”
~ Carl Jung
“Precisely the least, the softest, lightest, a lizard’s rustling, a breath, a flash, a moment – a little makes the way of the best happiness.”
~ Frederich Nietzsche
“Life is not meant to be easy, my child; but take courage: it can be delightful.”
~ George Bernard Shaw
My cousin Kim sent me the very short video of my football “girly throw” during the contest in Colorado. I would have gotten more distance if I’d just given up and thrown it underhand.
Next year, watch out! Jillian, I’m coming after you!